Lifestyle | Reflections!

One of the most important things I've learned this year is: Mental health comes first. I unfortunately learned that the hard way. I've struggled with putting my mental health first for years. I was pretty good at it until, I got triggered by something in my past. I was faced with two options, I could continue to keep repressing and ignoring. Or I could find ways to cope and move forward with my life. One was easy, and I found comfort in. It was all I knew how to do. The other one was a way more difficult, uncomfortable. I realized I didn't want to keep living in the comfort of my past. That's way too boring anyways! I chose to step outside my norm and comfort. I embarked on one of the most challenging journeys of my life thus far. I'm extremely proud of myself for doing so. It's been very empowering.

With validating all aspects of myself, I started to really realize what kind of people I need in my life. That came with recognizing and removing toxic relationships. It's lot easier said than done, believe me! But it was so worth it. I can say with confidence that the people I have in my life at this moment are truly the greatest. They are there for me when I need them. They constantly inspire me and motivate me to be the best version of myself. We've created some beautiful, unforgettable memories!

My main goal for the new year is to push myself more to step outside my comfort zone. I have this fear of failing and it's been preventing me from doing things, like going back to school and getting my place. I have to keep reminding myself that, if my plans don't work out exactly how I want them to, it's perfectly okay.  We sometimes have to mess up to prosper. It's not always seeking the result that's the most fulfilling, it's the journey that we took to get there.

Just a friendly reminder that 2016 is your year! You got this! I hope this year is everything you need and hope it to be!

Beauty | ❄ NYE❄Makeup!

Lifestyle | Me, & my sexuality!

I thought ‘coming out’ was the expectation to be on the roof top of a semi-high building in a downtown core and shouting, "HEY GUESS WHAT? I’M NOT STRAIGHT!!" Then the surrounding civilians turn their heads up in disapproval and begin to shame you in disgust. Luckily, that did not happen to me! The first time I told someone close to me I wasn't straight, was in a Crabby Joe's on wing night. It was glorious experience, as were our wings!

I was extremely worrisome about the idea of coming out to the people close to me about being pansexual! I knew telling my friends would be a whole lot easier than to tell my selective family members. The first time I told one of my best friends was when we were out for wings; it was very unplanned. We were talking about dating, gender identities and the laws of attraction. I began to realize that my answerers, were probably not in the tune of which a straight person would say. I recall saying, "I think this means I'm not straight!"

After that conversation I indulged in doing some reflecting and researching. I came to the realization about the definitive factors of what my attractions are and aren't! I feel comfortable identifying as pansexual! If you're wondering what pansexuality is Here's a great video and a great article!

I've decided to tell people and create conversations about sexualities, because I used to be so petrified to do so in the past. The mere idea of questioning my sexuality towards people who weren't Cis-dudes, sent me into a wave of shame. We unfortunately live in a society where the large majority of people have this mentality where everyone is straight. Has anyone never bought you a pair of shoes at some point in your life and they were the wrong size? But you continue to wear this pair of shoes as an obligation. Perhaps the person who bought them for you never insisted you to wear them, but there is this expectation for you to? It's uncomfortable and hella awkward. That's what it felt like for me to identify as straight. (Of course shoes and sexualities are not the same)! I stopped identifying as straight when I was roughly 17 to 18-years-old. However, that sense of shame made me fearful of being outed and exposed. So, I was always so over the top and outspoken about my dating experiences with Cis-dudes. Now, I'm in such a happy and comfortable place in my life, where I can freely stand on top of any roof top and shout about being pansexual! But since I'm mildly fearful of heights, creating a public blog post will do just fine

Lifestyle | 3 Liters of water EVERYDAY?

Last night I stumbled across this article, which is about a women deciding to drink 3 liters of water everyday. Seems a bit boring, until you really start discovering the benefits to keeping your body well hydrated. So, when I woke up around midday, I was in a random health kick mood and decided to take the plunge in consuming more water on a daily basis. I was determined on meeting the three liter mark, but I got distracted and lost count of how many glasses I actually drank. I was a bit disappointed with myself, but then I realized that going from not drinking a lot of water to indulging three entire liters is a massive jump. Taking baby steps is perfectly okay, and I'm sure my badder agrees!

If you're interested in giving your water some zest, here are some quirky "recipes" I found on Tumblr.